Still Standing, But Not the Same: A Memoir of Endurance, Honesty & Becoming Paperback – March 25, 2026

Some of us carry pain so long it starts to feel like home.In Still Standing, But Not the Same, Sebastian writes with uncommon honesty about a life shaped by chronic pain, twenty surgeries, a quadruple bypass, and the quiet, relentless work of showing up anyway — for his family, his community, and the children and families he has spent decades serving.This is not a triumphant comeback story. It is something truer: the account of a man who learned the difference between endurance and living, between strength that saves you and strength that slowly breaks you. Written in the days surrounding his most recent surgery, Sebastian moves through fear, faith, collapse, and the slow crawl back toward daylight — naming what he carried, setting down what wasn’t his, and discovering that healing begins not with courage, but with honesty.Paired with a companion workbook for your own healing journey, this book is for everyone who has stayed when staying was hard — and who is still becoming. Read more